Make it thru another day.
Monday, July 17, 2017
Today I feel abandoned.......
I will not finish the sentence because I just cannot.
Last night, I cried again, but was determined to stop posting about this horrible pain I feel.
We had the house carpets cleaned. I was sitting waiting for them to dry, watching TV.
Like a huge wave, again, I became overwhelmingly sad. I fought tears. Tonight has been stress and sadness.
I'm very tired, very, very, tired.
Friday, July 14, 2017
Thursday, July 13, 2017
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Are you grieving?
It's real, you know.
There are no two people that grieve the same.
There are no rules, no steps, no goals, no plan.
Grief is separation. It doesn't mean only when someone dies.
Life is hard.
Life can stink.
Those that profess to be so spiritual that they do not grieve are lying. Accepting the will of God is hard.
Tuesday, July 11, 2017
Time is moving. It's moving forward although I seem stuck.
Those that know, say it will get 'better'. How can something so bad get better?
On the other hand, to me, it seems to be getting harder. Really? Yes, really.
Because it has been longer since we last saw you. Four months and 5 days now.
This is a happy picture of you and your family. I am so glad we took family photos that day.
Son, you are missed. I've decided that I will miss you till the day I die.
Your sister and brother are a great comfort to me. You know that though.
So, what now?
Trying to balance a negative action/reaction with a positive act.
It's not easy.
I just want to sit and do nothing most days.