Here I sit, determined to start blogging about all the things the title to this blog, say.
I am frozen.
Why?
Sure life goes on but how?
Do I push thru?
Do I tread water?
Do I stay in bed all day, pull the covers over my head and hide from the world?
Do I recover or stay numb forever?
No clue.
No answers.
No light at the end of this long dark tunnel of grief.
Sure some day I will blog again.
Maybe not.
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2 comments:
I wish I knew something to say that would take away the pain, but I don't. After Barb left me, there was a considerable period when I felt hopeless. Even now, 27 years later, there are times when something sets off the pain again. Nevertheless, God has worked through it so that those times are rare, and comparatively short lived. As I look back, I see that God has used it to make me a stronger Christian and a better pastor, but there was a time when I felt that I had been completely destroyed and forgotten. He is doing the same for you, so just trust him, and understand those feelings are natural.
Thank you. Yes, I've come to realize that this will be a life long pain. How do you replace a child, even a grown one? Basicallly......
I'm a mess.
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