WHY?

Here I sit, determined to start blogging about all the things the title to this blog, say.

I am frozen.

Why?

Sure life goes on but how?

Do I push thru?

Do I tread water?

Do I stay in bed all day, pull the covers over my head and hide from the world?

Do I recover or stay numb forever?

No clue.

No answers.

No light at the end of this long dark tunnel of grief.

Sure some day I will blog again.

Maybe not.

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IOWA

Well, I am back from visiting Iowa.  The Daughter has moved there with her family.

Why?

A new job.  

I feel like I've lost her, too.  

We will see her again but not like it has been these last years.  

I am happy for her career advancement.  It's how far away it is from our door to their door.  

Sigh.

Life needs to get better!

This picture of us with the grands from a few years ago.

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5 MONTHS

Its been five months today.  

It seems harder because it has been longer since we saw you last!!

My goal.....just to make it through  one more day.

I told my family....I know nothing other than if I make it through the night, I will get up, eat something and take a shower.  After that, who knows?

Life is too hard to even plan.

Just take it as it comes.

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